Saturday, 29 May 2010

Its abit.... Fashion

So I saw this top in topshop the other day; But they didn't have ANY of my size (I shoulda just brought it)


But here it is for you to gawk at while I go cry in the corner:

Wo Zai Xiang Gang

Wo Zai Wang Jiao
I F"#King Miss This Place x


Lately; I've contracted conjunctivitis in my left eye, it's this eye infection that creates redness, irritation, and discharge (not the most pleasant of all things):

I picked the "nicest" and most similar one to what I had (it can get really bad) so before you click here; I warn you, it may be upsetting to some.

The experience of it wasn't so bad I believe; but all the while the infection was contagious; so to avoid it getting worse and spreading I wore a patch on the eye (not like it wasn't being stuck together by the gunk anyway); THIS, this was the worst part, I felt disabled; with only one good eye, I was giving it as much attention as I could as it was in effect having to work twice as hard; I felt uneasy as I couldn't see half the things I would usually (hypothetically speaking), crossing roads having to physically turn my head both ways to see, unsure about my own body width then it comes to "blind spots" resulting in bumping into many a things. It's not only the inconvenience of only using one eye; but the insecurity that came with it too.

I guess as a result of it I became really sympathetic to people with disabilities; not only those of temporary nature but more a permanent nature... Loosing any senses I have now could break me; I find it really courageous of them to have the ability to pick themselves back up and carry on and work around the disability.

Wednesday, 12 May 2010

Spread those tail feathers

I'm "grown up now"
aging often scares me... I'm constantly tryna catch up to my age...
"a twenty one year old should be..."
able to fend for themselves
finance wise
shouldn't lead the parents to worry

I'm sitting here... currently in my 2nd from final year of my degree... the "adult" world seems so much closer than it ever was... soon i'll be buying my own house... plunging myself into more debt.. or maybe even moving abroad to work... them short flights before they were nothing compared to what's coming up and least to say... I'm kinda scared; and yeah at the same time I'm completely thrilled to give it a try...

Which rings me to my main topic. Eloping; it seems like everyone I know is going back to the mother ship; which in turn was the inevitable... But more and more people I know are doing it, and I guess it all seems weird and at some point in the future I'm half prepared to jump on board too it's weird when you look back and it seems time's gone so fast